this is a new song i wrote & am posting now because it’s too late to make any (ANY) changes to my album & even if i wanted to this song doesn’t have a home there. i love it but it does not fit anywhere. everything it wants to do is done there in context, but here it kind of stands alone to encapsulate all of the small parts & atmospheres of a lot of the album’s first half.
i’ve been trying to reconcile this idea of making really serene, beautiful music designed for very specific purposes & places with making music that is very new & unique, not serving any purpose but its own and not making for as pleasing a listen. trying to find a place in between those two is tough & while writing my album i found solace in contextualization - pushing really beautiful, tranquil & sometimes heartbreaking moments next to moments of really ugly horror or noise - nothing new, at all, in application, but hopefully in sound something unique.
this song is a step back from that & forward at once - while wrapping up that idea of something ‘ugly’ under the surface of something serene, it manages to serve both a purpose & a place very well.
it’s a song specifically designed to fill an empty room facing a window where, just outside, leaves are starting to blow around a porch or yard in the wind, as the sky is darkening & a storm is approaching slowly but with no assurance.